So I bought a dub today. For those who don't know, that is 20$ worth of marijuana or approximately 1.7 grams of medium quality Buddha or 1.5 grams of "chronic shit" as it is often called. I haven't bought any in many months due to a general lethargy towards the matter. As I thought about it, I realized that lately I have had a general lethargy towards most things as of late. And yet, looking back when I used to smoke more I see that I was much happier, moving forward more with my life, and in a much better position than I am in now. Then I wonder "is there a cause and effect relationship" between the two; The weed was actually motivating me to do more with my time? And as I write this I first feel as though my time is wasting sitting here pondering about my time being wasted. Until realizing that having a revelation is in fact a well spent moment, so long as I remember my revelation later which because I am writing it I will. Which proves that this is not a waste of time which in turn reinforces my original hypothesis that marijuana motivates me to better use my time.
But it is still possible that my life was just better before and I happened to be smoking weed at the time. The weed may have had no influence, or could even have been holding me back which, if I remember correctly, is the exact thought that got me to stop smoking in the first place. If this is the case than I hope I am not too high to realize it sooner than later. But if it is not the case(which is the case I plan to make the case) then I will at least only be left with two options for what it could be. Oh, did I not mention the third option, the placebo case? Well, there is a good chance weed only works because I believe it does work. Which is why this paper is slanted in favor of marijuana usage. Now I am going to go do something else since this is done. And with that I'm off to pick up my pipe and get something done!